Friday, November 13, 2015

Emotional rollercoaster of regret(Part 2)

Emotional rollercoaster of regret
roll·er coast·er
Noun
An amusement park attraction that consists of a light railroad track with many tight turns and steep slopes, on which people ride in...
Verb
  Move, change, or occur in the dramatically changeable manner of a roller coaster.

The emotional rollercoaster of regret is a completely different feeling, on this ride  in the beginning when it begins to creep slowly upward the feeling is fear and terror your scared your heart is beating fast and very soon you know you made a big mistake by getting on this ride. What was I thinking about. You know you don't like rollercoasters but  the excitement you saw from everyone else's faces made you think this was the right choice. Maybe it would make you happy and excited. Never once thinking you hate the feeling of your stomach dropping and your heart beating fast with fear. The things that run through your mind is " I have to get off", " why did I do this" .At this point none of that matters because the ride has started and your already approaching the top. As you get to the top you begin to feel ill as if you may lose the chili dog you just finished eating. You are totally disgusted with yourself for even getting on this ride. You had been here before and you didn't like it the last time. You  ask yourself why would I do this to myself again? These are some of the same questions you ask yourself when you enter into a relationship with the wrong person once again.
As you begin struggling to find a answer it happens. The ride drops it takes a plunge downward going 100 miles per hour. You knew it was coming but still wasn't prepared for the feeling it gave you as you felt your stomach drop down to your ankles and pure fear takes over your heart. This is not a good feeling ,you never want to feel like this again. As the ride continues to flip you up and down and all around  for what seems like forever ,your feeling like your heart is going to jump out of your chest.  At this time you begin praying and asking God if he gets you off this ride alive you will never do this again. Your eyes are glued shut and you just want it stop. Suddenly without any notice it stops. As you unbuckle your seat belt you promise yourself your never getting on this rollercoaster again. The fear was so intense and that feeling of being sick to your stomach was too much for you to ever bear again so from that day on you never get back  on that rollercoaster again. This is the rollercoaster that you wouldn't stand in line for any amount of time to get back on in fact you will never even look at it again. This was it  you realize this particular ride did not make you happy in fact it almost scared the death out of you . In a relationship that's not worthy of your time, this type of emotional rollercoaster is never good for you. No matter how many times you go through it the feeling will always be sickening. You will never feel happy once it's over. In fact the feeling is quite the opposite . You feel regret, anxiety, and fear. Your all shook up and your mad at yourself for putting your heart through that turmoil. this was bad choice and you won't make that mistake again.
Life is like a rollercoaster it will start of slow and quickly starts to move at a rapid pace. Sometimes within a split second it will have you upside down. When riding this rollercoaster of life you have to stop and decide who do you love more you or them? If the answer is you ,you simply refuse to accept anymore of the pain. This is when you pick your belongings up and step off this ride and never get back  on again. If you've been on the ride for a long period of time it will take a lot of praying and even more soul searching to realize your worth and to decide that  you deserve better but once the light bulb clicks inside your soul you can exit without every looking back.
It's really just that simple.
Know your worth
Value yourself


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